I KNOW NOT THIS MAN.

Your problem may be that you have dishonored and disregarded your parents. If you find it difficult to honour them, it could as well be difficult to honour God whom you haven't seen. If you deny Jesus when it matters, His love is not in you, neither do you love Him. A refusal to carry out spiritual instruction is a denial of Jesus. The refusal to share His Word means, you never knew Him.