S2 Ep. 6 | Rising Above the Rhythm of the Universe

<p><strong><span data-preserver-spaces="true">S2 Episode 6: Rising Above the Rhythm of the Universe</span></strong></p> <p><strong><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> Part One: November 2022</span></strong></p> <p><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> "Are you ok?" my good friend asked me on the phone a couple of days ago, and I couldn't answer him because I was holding back the tears of my grief. My greatest temptation took a huge piece of my heart with it.</span></p> <p><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> I didn't want this post about Rhythm to be part two of Angel's traumatic relationship loss story, but I had to let that go because this is the story that happened, and it is a fine example of the pendulum swing in my life. It is also how I used my practice of service to others and meditation to neutralize it.</span></p> <p><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> I have been awake but living a nightmare. The nightmare began the day I found out about her. The nightmare most recently came in the form of a social media profile picture. There, my alleged life partner was walking down the aisle in unholy matrimony with her, the other woman, his gut-wrenching secret, only three short months after I found out about her and thus, ended us. </span></p> <p><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> This nightmare evokes a soul-crushing "what the fuck?!" </span></p> <p><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> That moment, upon seeing the picture,I knew I had dodged a bullet of crazy. That the drama train left the station without me on it, I should be relieved, say good riddance, sayonara – I'm moving on without that weight of irresponsibility strapped to my ankle.</span></p> <p><span data-preserver-spaces="true"> But the emotional me, the part that loved and believed in what their best friend shared with them, is crying her eyes out. A wounded and broken child experiencing betrayal of the most profound kind, the knife turning yet again in a deeply broken heart., "I don't want my choices to affect you," he said when I found out about her. <