S1. Ep. 17 | Triggered? Time to Unpack

<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">SO LISTENERS, I HAVE A CONFESSION:  I judge those who depend on others, and why?</span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">because I am jealous of them.  </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">And why is that? Because I’ve never had that. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Now I find myself in a relationship with someone I care deeply about - who is not perfect, who is working on themself as well - and yet because I care deeply and have certain desires, now ALL my shit is coming up. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Has this ever happened to you? Finally, you are in a loving, stable relationship that is enhancing and growing your life abundantly but then oh, wait - out of the blue you feel deeply, deeply triggered?</span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">“The only difference between a flower and a weed is judgment.” -unknown </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">My roasted dandelion tea told me this snippet of wisdom this morning - after some serious self-work and soul searching because I found myself SUPER triggered by something that actually hadn’t happened yet. The key to my calming down was just that - recognition that what I was triggered by had not happened. I was not experiencing what was happening - but a replay of a pattern of something in my past. And in that moment I vowed to never let it affect my future again.  </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">You see I’ve got a lot of inner child wounding - my father left my family when I was very young.  I have no memory of him ever being a family with my mom and me and my sister.  I have no explanation from any adult in my memory that makes sense of his sudden gone-ness.  I just have a huge sense of loss there where I should have a father figure.  (now I know and understand as an adult what happened to my parents' marriage but this doesn’t change the inner child wounding of it having happened).  Now, combine this wounding with that father’s really awful ability to