S1, Ep. 15 | Cause + Effect

<p><span style="font-weight: 400;">These last few days my dear listeners I have found myself upset, frantic even, emotional, and venting - I’ve remained grounded but barely and as a result I’m tired, my cup is going dry and as I waited in the airport to fly to Denver to meet my partner’s mother for the first time I found the words and thoughts of others around me to vibrate painfully, grating off my eardrums.  </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">This is a sign that I’m not in a good place. That I allowed myself to become the effect versus the cause in my environment, and my environment now becomes an irritant. While I was Meditating with them, my Runes kept repeating to me this statement “I’m over directed towards outer things.” Outer things meaning things that are outside my sphere of control, outside of myself. And recently I’ve felt justified in reacting because things have been outside of my control. I don’t control airlines, I don’t control my partner’s friends' bad decisions, I don’t control the internet, sales tax, rental car prices - and I’ve been upset because my expectations of others were not met, people I care about were injured and there was nothing I could do about it. All I could do about it was react, get frazzled and now I find myself exhausted. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">It took a good hard long look at myself today in meditation sitting here in a hotel room in Colorado, my runes on full repeat - screaming Naudhiz! Naudhiz! Naudhiz! for me to finally listen, and realize that the story I’m playing that I allowed to run my world for the past week is bullshit. It's not the outside world making me this way, it's me - and I can be something other than upset. If I choose to rise above my monkey mind and reactionary behaviors. </span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">So the Rune Naudhiz (or Needfire) has the following Rune poems associated with it:</span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">#1</span></p> <p><span style="font-weight: 400;">Need is constricting on