heart crushing truth

<p>'heart crushing truth'</p> <p><br></p> <p><em>i do not want to die.</em></p> <p><br></p> <p>i thought i was a man</p> <p>but when my father spoke those words</p> <p>i did not feel a man at all.</p> <p><br></p> <p>i became again a wide-eyed six-year-old</p> <p>who believed god was magic and</p> <p>life remained the same waking in the morn</p> <p>as the night before closing lids to it.</p> <p><br></p> <p>i wonder to this day</p> <p>if only i had stayed asleep</p> <p>might my father still be alive.</p> <p><br></p> <p>#barflypoet</p> <p>#josephapinto</p> <p>www.josephpinto.com&nbsp;</p> <p>© Copyright Joseph A. Pinto. All Rights Reserved.</p> <p>*</p> <p>Poetry served to you raw and unedited from the moment crafted;</p> <p>all poetry is older work and chosen at random unless otherwise noted.</p> <p>*</p> <p>‘Scotch and Scars’ and ‘A Distilled Spirit’ in paperback and Kindle ebook at Amazon.</p>