280: Spoken Word Poem: Fear Marks the Spot

<p>This past weekend I was invited to write and share a new spoken word poem at my soul sister, Danette May’s event. To say I was terrified is putting it mildly, but I did it! And while I’m still processing my the journey and the emotions around it, one thing I know for certain is that my fear is always the X that marks the spot when it comes to what fulfills me and makes me feel like I’m living in my highest potential.</p> <p>I shared a couple clips of the poem on social media, but have gotten several requests to hear the poem in its entirety. Always one to feel the fear again (why?!), I’ve recorded it on this episode and have provided the words below. If my words pull at your soul and you know someone else who would benefit, please share. Thanks so much for all of your support!</p> <p>Here we go…</p> <p>I got up today only to find that I’m still not yet where I want to be</p> <p>A little less “I woke up like this” </p> <p>A little more - “existential crisis” – feeling stuck in my reality.</p> <p> </p> <p>When I think about who I am now, compared to who I think I’m supposed to be </p> <p>I wake up every morning, AND INSTEAD of doing things that set me free</p> <p>I put on a straight-jacket and wear someone else’s identity. </p> <p> </p> <p>Not even accepting myself on my own ID </p> <p>Height one inch taller</p> <p>Weight 10 pounds smaller</p> <p>Anyone else fear a lie detector test at the DMV – or is it just me?</p> <p> </p> <p>Just the thought of trying to change my life makes me feel defeated </p> <p>Like I got the short end of the stick</p> <p>Or like this bitch over here got all the talent </p> <p>And I got cheated.</p> <p> </p> <p>When I close my eyes, I can see my life’s vision</p> <p>But when I open them, I can’t see past my email, my thighs, my to-do list and dirty kitchen</p> <p>I mean what’s it gonna take to reach my dream, be seen, and get attention?</p> <p>Instead of growing my mind</p> <p>I put all my energy towards beauty, titles and Instagram mentions.</p> <p> </p> <p>When will I be enough?</p> <